MKE #3 – Week 1 – Another Oppurtunity
I woke up thinking about all the possibilities and potential experiences
I could co-create with this oppurtunity.
This morning, New Day
A New Beginning.
It could be anything!
I felt a surge of enthusiam
emerge as I wonder now,
before I’ve ever taken my head off the floor
“What will it be?”
What will I choose?
I think of the analogy of the universe being a cosmic waiter,
just waiting to take my order
if I will just decide already.
It is done.
“Ask for what you want”!
I feel myself begging.
What do I REALLEY want.
Sometimes I think I try too hard,
thinking the harder I work
the more pain, toil and struggle I endure
the more I feel, or believe that
I deserve it.
I deserve to have what I want most,
what I dream about
and day out.
Who am I to have MY dreams come true?
What about everybody else?
I think I feel the self-sacrificial social conditioning,
subconcious beliefs, probably of fearing that I will no longer be loved
If I do whatever it is I feel I am being pulled to do,
it feels like it is tugging me ethereally
like a little child trying to wake their parents from
slumber to ‘Wake up and come play!’
Ive heard infants and children (before they are influenced)
described as the most selfish, self-centered little creatures on the planet.
Now what do I do with this thought
that I am to love myself FIRST,
and only than can I ever realley love anything else.
I would have to be Selfish than?
Not just to for my own good,
but also if I ever hope to help ANYONE AT ALL!?!?!
Forget about the potential others, wants, desires, dreams
at least until I am My True Self.
and just mind my own business Until then
and Only then,
Can I help them, love them at all.
It does seem like I would have enough to deal with
learning to care for myself,
Is it not a lifelong journey?
Learning to Love…
I mean, even now I am
wondering If I love myself enough.
What is Love?
Can I Love everything else while loving myself as well?
Maybe that IS how this works.
As Ive heard it said “Seek first the kingdom and the rest will be added to you.”
As a natural by-product of my existance,
If I will just make it my soul intention to love my individual self AND my Whole Self,
Which I consider everything
I am connected and one with everything.
Can I realley love everything
As myself if I dont love myself first?
Do I Love myself?